放開了,某些事

或許是深夜的影響吧?讀著一些文章,聽著音樂,心中有些東西似乎散去了。

時間總是不等人的,恢復與否還是得看自己。我呢?我選擇讓自己忙碌,忙碌到無暇去難過。然後在經歷過不少事後,走到了現在這一步。

這段期間內,我時不時會被回憶衝擊。發生的當下也只能裝沒事,同時控制好自己的情緒,以防陷入莫名低落,但充其量也只是表面功夫罷了。

不過也沒關係了。

能在今年結束前,放下一些事情與情緒,我想也是種幸運。

真的,不用再回頭了。

感謝自己能走到現在這一步,沒有因為低落而打敗自己。

感謝發生過的曾經,讓我走上了我該走的路。

雖然還是不想跟某些人事物扯上關係,但也只是因為看清了某些事。對於這點,我也抱持著感謝。

好了,繼續前進吧。

It’s Always Darkest Before the Dawn.

This is a phase I wish I could skip, every time.

It’s always been difficult for me to achieve closure or to let go of certain things, especially in terms of relationships. You’d think that someone in their mid-twenties should be able to handle it, but the reality of it is I can’t, at least not yet.

Talking the talk is easy, but when we need to walk the walk, we usually end up taking the wrong steps and stumble. Letting go isn’t easy, period. People can say all they want, but when it’s actually your “turn” to let go of something/someone you care immensely for, it’s the hardest thing in the world.

This doesn’t mean that it’s impossible; it’s just really difficult. And it’s supposed to be; otherwise it’s not as important as you think. All we can do is take one step at a time, and hope for the best.

I know this is the hardest part, and there’s no other way around it. But emotional clarity will come; it’s just a matter of time.