放開了,某些事

或許是深夜的影響吧?讀著一些文章,聽著音樂,心中有些東西似乎散去了。

時間總是不等人的,恢復與否還是得看自己。我呢?我選擇讓自己忙碌,忙碌到無暇去難過。然後在經歷過不少事後,走到了現在這一步。

這段期間內,我時不時會被回憶衝擊。發生的當下也只能裝沒事,同時控制好自己的情緒,以防陷入莫名低落,但充其量也只是表面功夫罷了。

不過也沒關係了。

能在今年結束前,放下一些事情與情緒,我想也是種幸運。

真的,不用再回頭了。

感謝自己能走到現在這一步,沒有因為低落而打敗自己。

感謝發生過的曾經,讓我走上了我該走的路。

雖然還是不想跟某些人事物扯上關係,但也只是因為看清了某些事。對於這點,我也抱持著感謝。

好了,繼續前進吧。

An Open Letter.

Hey, how are you?

The most cliche opening ever, right?

But I feel that sometimes the most cliche lines are the most genuine ones, don’t you?

Of course you’d agree, you’re me.

Recently, you re-covered a song you first did three years ago. Back then, you were almost 23, just somewhat recovered from a horrible heartbreak. You felt betrayed, lost, angry, and disappointed.

You shifted a lot of focus onto music, just so all of your feelings have an exit. You don’t like to be depressed, despite it being part of your emotional nature. So you try hard to be happy.

Three years later, so many things have happened to you, both good and bad.

The same song that you started out with became one of your signature covers, after singing it for the millionth time (roll eyes). You became a street dancer, performed at open mics, met new people, acted in multiple short videos and short films, and fell in love.

But you also experienced heartbreak, loss of family, disappointments, and (non-clinical) depression. You’ve also made stupid mistakes, hurt people, and let people down as well. Life isn’t all sweets and roses, obviously.

Still, you’ve made it past everything, you’ve learned to embrace the bad and cherish the good, and you’re working to become a better version of you every day, little by little.

You might not have done everything right, and you still have a lot to improve on, but you’re working on it, and that’s what matters.

Your New Year’s Resolution was to become better every day, I guess you’re not doing too bad, huh?

Keep it up, and hopefully three years later, you’ll be singing something new, maybe something you wrote yourself!

Remember, there’s still so much ahead of you, so don’t stand in one place for too long. Keep moving forward, and Godspeed.

Best of luck,

Albert