狠下心來,放下妳。

 

終於決定把我們之間的電子記錄全部清除。

清掉時,我沒有一點不捨。不是因為我恨妳,而是因為知道,我不該再繼續留著妳的影子了。

我們沒有在一起,相處的時間也十分短暫。可是在那短暫的時間內,我曾經很幸福。

雖然因為自己的不成熟而傷害了妳,進而親手搞砸了未來的可能性。但事後我仍然幼稚的想抓住跟妳之間的回憶,以為這樣就會有可能再次等到妳。

不過妳不會回來了。

我全心的愛著妳,在我心上留下深刻的痕跡。現在要放下這一切,對於巨蟹座的我來說,是多麼的困難。尤其是當分開的記憶仍舊清晰,美好的記憶則更是如此。

所以我狠下了心,不給自己留任何餘地。刪了就是刪了,不會再回來,如同我們消逝於時間中的情感般。

但是妳給我的卡片我還是留著,只是會埋在我櫃子深處的舊鞋盒裡,作為回憶保存著。等到某天,當我真正找到一輩子的幸福時,會再扔了吧。

至於腦中的回憶,就讓它慢慢變成養分,滋潤著我的成長,讓我能夠更好。

謝謝妳給的一切,現在我要狠心放下妳的一切,然後頭也不回的繼續往前走。

 

-寫於2016年2月25號


 

最近決定把之前寫的文章翻出來發表,是因為自己終於可以豁達的面對那些過往,而不再陷入那些情緒裡。

不會難過是騙人的,但這些難過再也無法束縛自己前進。於是我再次翻開過往,正視自己的傷口。

不論多久,終究會再次前進的,就像現在的我一樣。

 

 

 

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I haven’t written a blog in the longest time. Right now, it’s mostly because my life is somewhat mundane and repetitive. No one wants to hear about how I woke up, went to school, got off school, went home, did homework, and went to bed (with meals in between, obviously).

However, I’ve went through quite a bit these last few weeks. I’m not going to go deep into it, at least not now, and certainly not here. But one thing is certain: my emotions and thoughts are pouring out right now. Ever since I concluded my #100DaysOfInsta project, I’ve felt somewhat bottled up. Writing suddenly became an outlet, something to pour my emotions into. Whether it’s song lyrics, short essays, or just simple phrases, it all results from my emotions.

I’ve always enjoyed writing, but I’ve never considered myself good at it. It’s always been my little “hobby" on the side, while I focused more on music and performing. I guess as the years progressed, my grasp on using words and phrases have increased, and all the random writing I did somewhat polished my skills as well.

So this brings me here: this blog.

I will be writing whatever I want here. The first few posts would probably focus on love and relationships, with further expansion into other topics like life experiences, music, movies, culture, etc. I will also alternate between Mandarin and English. This will be a new start.

The last chapter of my life ended on a bad note. Now, let me start a new one, since we all get a clean slate tomorrow. And boy, do I need mine.